We have season passes to Disneyland so we go several times a month. My sister and I took a quick trip down there with the kiddos tonight. On the way home I got thinking about how different trips to DL are now. Here I am in Oct 2007.
(That's the back of Cooper's head and yes, we rock the backpack leash the ENTIRE time because Cooper is a crazy runner!) There isn't a ride in the place that I am scared I won't fit into (that's a lie, logically I know I will fit, but the fat girl inside is still terrified). My feet never hurt and I am never tired after a few hours there, even after dealing with my 6 and 2 year old. We went on Dumbo a few months ago and that was such a HUGE deal for me. I hadn't been on that ride since I was a kid! Losing this weight has been so amazing not only for me and my health, but for my kids. They don't have to think twice about their mom not fitting on a ride or having to sit down while they go on rides because I am so tired. During that trip in 2007 I was seriously considering a scooter telling myself that since I had a C-section 3 weeks earlier, I could justify it! How sad is that! The only thing that I still struggle with when I got to DL is the desire to eat the whole time. I always pack snacks and somewhere inside I feel like DL is a treat so we should eat treats. This has to stem from when I was a kid or something when DL was a once a year treat, not a monthly excursion. If I have packed some kind of sweet, I think about it WAY too much! I obsess about it and then give in and induldge. I know I said that I pretty much eat whatever once I have had my protein bar, coffee and greek yogurt but that means I eat whatever "normal" food I want. Sweets should be limited, WLS or not. I am a hit or miss dumper so I never really know when I will get sick with the sweets but that doesn't stop me most of the time. My obsessive thoughts about food are a big struggle for me, but that's another post another time. It's after midnight and I really should go to bed! Have a good one!
In my defense, I had a baby one month prior to this... lol! Not a pound of this was because of the baby! I remember being so exhausted after just a few hours. My feet throbbed! My back hurt and I was terrified to go on any of the rides. I did, for my son's sake (that's Patrick in the pic) but it was horrible! I could hardly fit on the rides and I was so uncomfortable. I would not dream of going on rides like Dumbo, Astro Blasters, anything with a seat belt. I remember we went a few months after this pic was taken and I took Patrick on Big Thunder Mountain. If you aren't familiar with DL, it's a fast train roller coster thing. Two people fit into each of the cars. So here I am, 300+ lbs with my 40 lb four year old. The ride has a bar that comes down as far as the biggest person. My son was flying all around the entire time terrified because he was not secure in his seat because his mom was so big the bar would get no where near him. I remember holding on to him so tightly. It was so scary and I remember feeling so guilty that my son had have such a huge mom. Thankfully he was only 4 and probably won't remember that experience, but it was burned into my memory. So flash forward 2 1/2 years...
(That's the back of Cooper's head and yes, we rock the backpack leash the ENTIRE time because Cooper is a crazy runner!) There isn't a ride in the place that I am scared I won't fit into (that's a lie, logically I know I will fit, but the fat girl inside is still terrified). My feet never hurt and I am never tired after a few hours there, even after dealing with my 6 and 2 year old. We went on Dumbo a few months ago and that was such a HUGE deal for me. I hadn't been on that ride since I was a kid! Losing this weight has been so amazing not only for me and my health, but for my kids. They don't have to think twice about their mom not fitting on a ride or having to sit down while they go on rides because I am so tired. During that trip in 2007 I was seriously considering a scooter telling myself that since I had a C-section 3 weeks earlier, I could justify it! How sad is that! The only thing that I still struggle with when I got to DL is the desire to eat the whole time. I always pack snacks and somewhere inside I feel like DL is a treat so we should eat treats. This has to stem from when I was a kid or something when DL was a once a year treat, not a monthly excursion. If I have packed some kind of sweet, I think about it WAY too much! I obsess about it and then give in and induldge. I know I said that I pretty much eat whatever once I have had my protein bar, coffee and greek yogurt but that means I eat whatever "normal" food I want. Sweets should be limited, WLS or not. I am a hit or miss dumper so I never really know when I will get sick with the sweets but that doesn't stop me most of the time. My obsessive thoughts about food are a big struggle for me, but that's another post another time. It's after midnight and I really should go to bed! Have a good one!
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