Movie Night!

So my sister Amber and I went and saw Sex and the City 2 tonight! What a fun movie! It is exactly what you would expect it to be! Funny and Fabulous! We went to 7-11 for some movie treats. I found these new M&M pretzel candies! OMG, so friggin' good! I am a big fan of salty/sweet combos and this one is a winner. And they are a pretty good candy choice as far as I was concerned...150 calories, 5 grams of fat and 16 grams of sugar. Not too bad for candy. But here is where I find myself annoyed at myself. Why did I have to involve food in my fun evening activity? I know our culture forces food on us for EVERY event so I'm sure it is sheer habit but I hate it and I really want to change it. I don't want to feel the desire to eat every time I go to the movies, or go to Disneyland, or go to the zoo, or go to Target! Grrrrr! The fat girl inside me still thinks about food ALOT and I really want to change that but I am not sure how. I bought a book a few days ago that was recommended to me by a therapist I work with. According to him, if you work through the book, you can bypass the need for therapy. I am all for that since I don't have the time, money, or attention span for therapy. The book is called "Loving What is: Four questions that can change your life" by Byron Katie . I know there are alot of things mentally that I need to work through to make this new body and lifestyle last. I still have a lot of the same food issues I had pre-op. They always said the surgery was on your stomach, not your brain. I always thought that was so cheesy, but it really is true. I am still a fat girl inside. My brain hasn't caught up with my body. I have also been reading Geneen Roth's Woman Food and God book. Problem with me is I get so overwhelmed at the thought of doing the soul searching involved in this book that I put it off and put it off telling myself that I need to wait until I have some quiet time. As a working mommy of 2 there is very little quiet time in my world. By the time the kids are in bed and the chores are done it's usually 11 pm and I am spent! I need some accountability so I will use this blog. This weekend I will read chapter 1 and 2 of Loving What Is and I will do the Judge-your-neighbor worksheet. I will report back when it is done and let you know how it went. This weekend I will also pick one of Geneen Roth's Eating Guidelines to work on this weekend. I will do "Eat sitting down in a calm environment. This does not include the car." Well, it feels good to have a plan. I already have a cleaning to do list and a new novel I am dying to start The Outlander by Diana Gabaldon. So I think I will read one chapter of the Outlander then do something off my To-Do list. It's going to be a lazy long weekend so that should work...

Enjoy your long weekend!